On letting go...
I've found that it's easier to do when he's calm and I can see the parts of him that I fell for in the first place.
Logically, that doesn't make a lot of sense to me as you'd think that seeing glimpses of "the old him" would draw me in closer.
But it's the good parts of him that I want to take with me as I continue my journey. His funny redneck comments, slapstick sense of humor, the oxymoron of his soothing rough voice... there are certain things that whenever I hear them, I think of him. I'm glad that a lot of those things are positive.
So, I'll care for him a little bit longer while he needs me and then I'll let him go and be wiser and happier for it.
That's all for now.